Thursday, December 8, 2016

Are People Really That Different?

It must be the case that humans are actually quite different to each other, what seems intuitive to me politically is obviously not what lots of people think.

I didn't grow up in a household that was socialist or anything like that, I am not emulating things from my childhood, what makes me such a convinced socialist? I mean I am not even exposed to that much socialist propaganda, I would like to think that I just thought it sounded right. Why are there so many people voting for regressive politicians? I wish I could experience being another human being so that I could truly know their thought process, I am curious how different they experience reality. Maybe it isn't as important to them, it's maybe just something that happens far away to them, so it just becomes a fashion statement? It's frustrating, why would anyone want to live in a racist, homophobic police state? Lots of people voted for Hitler obviously, you could say that it was out of desperation though, things were really bad when he got elected, nothing like now. Are there seriously people on the top who just want to mess with people? Must be. Who would want less security from the government? I don't get it. Is it really that important to be in a dog eat dog world that people would fight for it? It's sounds stupid to me I am sorry.

It is nice to have variety in many things, but I wouldn't mind if people thought more like me.

And where does all this hate come from? I understand punishing a criminal, or looking down on backward cultural practices. But just because you are of a different race? It's all so god damned stupid.

I supported Bernie and got Trump, lately I am more and more glad that I don't have to spend eternity here.

Friday, November 4, 2016

Update To People Who Read This Blog

I no longer live alone, I moved in with my fiance and her son. It's definitely less lonely and that is good, but her son sure is a handful.

I had a psychotic break in the summer and wound up in the mental ward again, it was a bummer. I am now on an increased dose, I hope that prevents this from happening again, I am really sick of it and thought it wouldn't happen again since it had been over three years. Though I must say on the increased dose I have even less symptoms, also now that I have classes on campus again and live with people my sleep is more regulated, which probably helps too.

One Of The Reasons Why My Blogs Keep Disappearing

I dunno, I have mentioned that I was all conflicted about my national identity and so on. Screw national identity, I want to be a human first. It's really just like a fashion choice, I have stated that I didn't think of "Garfield" for example as American when I was a child, it was just "Garfield", so it was learned behavior and a choice. Though cultural and regional distinctiveness is cool I don't think it should define us to any deep extent. We should be good humans first. Patriotism is also just a way to manipulate the masses, Marx was right.

I don't really like answering the question "Where are you from" anyways.

Also, you can't really be neighbors with a whole city or nation, you can be neighbors with your neighbors. It's not like I know every member of nation personally, I have my circle of friends and family and that is my nation.

Monday, October 31, 2016

My Mind

It's strange how the mind works, as mentioned I do believe there is more meaning to existence than is readily visible. I am not a bible thumper by any stretch of the imagination though, since I have had no holy visions and won't take another person's word for what religion or mythology have true stories. It was briefly comforting me since the fact that I do believe something beyond cold scientific process is going on in our reality might mean there is also more in store for me than just death.

The strange part of how the mind works is referring to how this metaphysical thought is easily transplanted by more mundane things, like checking facebook, or worrying about my status in society. I wish I were more focused on the important metaphysical thoughts than on the basic thoughts of day to day drudgery, after all, this life appears to be fairly straightforward, short, and perhaps meaningless compared to the endless possibilities of existence.

Sunday, October 16, 2016


I worry too much about my future I feel, I mean to worry about it all is obviously smart, but I worry all the time. I worry if I will ever have anything resembling a career, and honestly I don't really need one to get by, it would be good for my self-worth and all, but I have limitations that hinder me for fully realizing myself as an adult.

I need to be cool, realize that I have it pretty good and that anything that comes my way will be dealt with.

Also, I have more support now with Tammy, which is awesome, I didn't think guys like me get to have ladies, especially successful ladies.

Tuesday, October 4, 2016


The first U.S. VP debate was streamed live on twitter, please twitter do more of this, you should have sport events and more on twitter live, for a fee of course.

Oh yeah, the debate, it seems the basic defense for Trump's outbursts seems to be that he doesn't mean it and he isn't a seasoned politician. He still rubs me the wrong way.

Monday, October 3, 2016


I do worry that realists have it all figured out and I am just a naive idealist hoping that basic human nature doesn't always triumph in everything.

Darwin depresses me, I have to believe that people can be nice, maybe if the elite weren't so greedy people could be free to be nicer. Things like the welfare queen myth don't help, and propaganda from the late 19th century in America was basically the same, though with African American men doing the same kind of thing.

If you are a Realist, just note that the American Dream isn't helpful when getting virtuous citizens, I know I conflict in ideology a bit because I claim to be an Individualist and I don't think everyone's primary engine of motivation should be to make it to the top, since that isn't realistic or helpful for most people. I suffer from this as well, I fantasize about being important and successful of course, but I try to think of how being good makes life better. And as always, ethics before religion.


If Marx was right about Capitalism eventually crushing itself, maybe all this global trade liberalization can set the stage for a truly global revolution to happen much more smoothly. Since the global trade liberalization and removal of borders can even out cultural differences if it include a cultural component (it does). So the world will be culturally very Western (unless the rising economic powers in the other parts of the world start pumping out more monocultural components like Bollywood, Kung-Fu, and Anime). If only the "Clash of Civilizations" didn't appear to be a currently active ingredient of international relations, mind you ISIS will eventually go away I hope.

Sunday, September 18, 2016

Lo And Behold

I quite liked the movie, I especially liked the concept of thinking of humanity as a fluid, it makes sense considering how many existential threats we have to deal with.

Wednesday, September 14, 2016

Voting For Trump Sends The Wrong Message

If Trump is elected President, it will just embolden the kind of people who like the kind of racist xenophobic filth that spews from his mouth.

Friday, September 9, 2016

The Coming Revolution In Automation

I think it's wise to plan ahead for the coming revolution in automation which will kill work; with basic income programs, so that the savings in labor costs don't create poverty.

Sunday, August 21, 2016

The Problem With Politics Online In It's Current State

There are just too many anarchist hackers! Imagine an election being hacked! That would be a disaster!

Also people still make too many snap judgements when dealing with online activity.

There Should Be A Superhero That Takes On All The Supervillains Ever Created

And it should be a tiny girl.

Friday, August 19, 2016

Political Participation

I think letter writing campaign and petitions accessible from the computer are a good way to keep individuals interested in politics. Online media also helps giving people an ability to feel like they matter no matter how small the situation. Accepting micro donations from the computer also helps people keep their interest since they can speak with their money, and feel like they are part of something greater than their individual lives. Blogs teach us that are thoughts matter even if they are just for private or inner circle activity.

The democratic deficit must be fought or economists will rule over political scientists and treat the population like an ant-hill.

I Agree With PC Gamer

The VR headsets need to be more convenient to get mass market appeal. These wires gotta go and they have to be lighter.

Tuesday, August 9, 2016

Things To Do Whilst Thinking

I like to think while I am doing certain things, one weird thing that helped me have a very intense thought process was watching multiple entertainment video streams at once, my mind was drawing independent conclusions while being stimulated, ironic considering video entertainment is often used to numb the higher thought process. It was related to the videos and yet related to my innermost thoughts at the same time, it's probably because the mind can't focus on any one stream and therefore plays around with itself. The choice of video is obviously important too, it should definitely not be porn! :D

Thinking in silence does work though, it's just lonely here.

Taking Advantage Of Human Aggression For Productiveness

I feel that all this aggression in media serves as a substitute motivator to get people working. #Illuminati

Thursday, August 4, 2016

Friday, July 29, 2016

More About My Fascination With Germanic Mythology

I love that there is a dialogue and sharing of power with gods. Not just a totalitarian regime.


Casey and me are working on a film script. It's about our conversations and our Friendship.

Sunday, July 24, 2016

Bumpy Ride

On my way to Mom's on public transit, still haven't caught the latest lrt model, oops just missed my station.

Friday, July 22, 2016

Being A Marvel Fan

I do believe that mixing up mythologies is wise and useful in the interests of religious harmony.

Germanic Mythology

I find it strange that the Catholic Church is possessive of me though I seek truth in the ancient Germanic Mythology. I would consider myself some who believes in the Germanic Gods before the Catholic God. And I am a peaceful person at heart.

So I renounce my Catholicism! Hopefully nothing bad will happen because of it, there are many Religious Zealots in Calgary it appears.

Thursday, July 21, 2016

Star Trek Beyond

If you love or like Star Trek I would highly recommend watching this latest film. The Starbase Yorktown is breathtaking! It had the high quality action that has become the trademark of the post ST:TMP films, but I didn't mind. It had a message of peace over aggression and war, which is in the finest tradition of Star Trek and Gene Roddenberry. It had a nod to the pre Kelvin Timeline Prime Timeline in the form of the young Spock receiving a picture of the original crew from one of the later original six movies!

Enough said!

Tuesday, July 19, 2016

Monday, July 18, 2016


They just secured a deal to stream the new Star Trek series internationally.

Edit : Though not in the United States or Canada. :(

Cowboy Bebop

The 20th Century needs to rest in peace.

Saturday, July 16, 2016

End Of The Cold War?

The more and more I look at the news I realize that the Cold War isn't over, the opponents have just shrouded under new flags and Rhetoric.

Wednesday, June 29, 2016

X-Men Apocalypse

I think the message to protect the less powerful/powerless is very good. Even if you can see that you have extraordinary ability.

Sunday, June 26, 2016

Poverty As A Crime

I do hope we can grow beyond systems that treat people who are poor as having "deserved" it. There are so many examples of elites participating in criminal activity, so there is little room for saying that the elite was born better, though some elite crimes (like criminalizing the poor) are not punishable offenses (unless you are a militant revolutionary).

Of course if you are poor and miserable it is more likely that you will try drugs or shoplift, but that shouldn't be overpunished. In fact I do think that stealing bread is no crime.

Living Below The Current Canadian Poverty Line

The reasons I don't consider myself poor are that I don't have to worry about shelter, food, and I can speak my mind openly without fear of the government punishing me, well unless I have a psychotic break and start spouting nonsense.

I also have my own place (admittedly I rent, so I can get thrown out which stinks), and don't live in a shelter.

So Calgary is a pretty nice place for me to live with my problems.


I had a government student loan in Canada and it didn't cover all the costs associated with going to University. What gives? They expect you to do a full course load and have a job? The student loan debt is bad enough, it should at least work properly. Why can't everywhere be like Germany? No tuition, just need the grades.

Please don't get worse, if we are going to have to have class warfare it should at least reduce systems of being "high-born" into wealth and privilege giving access to education, what's so wrong with merit?

And while I am at it, isn't everyone valuable to the functioning of society, should we not all have comparable rewards? I don't think this overcompensation of the ruling elite is good (It's not even good for the elite, ever heard of the French revolution?). Down with class warfare.

Friday, June 24, 2016


All this political primitivism, the brexit is just a sign of this reawakening of national sovereignty movements winning against the progressive regional movements. It's a return to old ways of doing politics, eventhough the E.U. is flawed as it stands it is still better than this small-minded nonsense. It has decent seperation of power and voter participation, so the E.U. yet another victim of neo-liberalism and it's out of control banking sector. But these institutions aren't static, they can change.

Wednesday, June 22, 2016

A German Epic

The unification of the German State in the late 19th century was a good thing. We get all these high production value movies about how awful we were in the NS period, why not make a movie to make us feel good about ourselves?

Maybe it's too early though.

Monday, June 20, 2016


I am sad, I think the fact that I am schizophrenic just harms any cause I take up if I get noticed by the masses. Maybe it's best if I stay in the margins.

Monday, May 30, 2016

Starship Troopers

As a hive mind I think we take orders sometimes from other species, we communicate with eachother. It's weird but I am an animal friend so I think it makes things more interesting. And since we are cooperating between species we might as well be diplomatic to improve relations and resource extraction.

Even if you think it's offensive to think like this it doesn't mean you are right.

I Have Dark Thoughts

As a response to Doom I want to invade hell with the fallen SS. It's how I fight demons.

I'd totally commission that video game.

The Novel I Was Working On

I turned it into a short story, I didn't want to drone on.

Saturday, May 28, 2016

Patriarchy Smashing Conspiracy Theories

I am worried that Power Feminists are killing off the Alpha males since they would naturally be the keepers of the Patriarchy or at least feminizing them. I think it would be dumb, it would make the women miserable. I know that women even love men who are jerks, and I am not saying that men should be like that, they should be educated and possibly sedated to be kinder.

As always, full equality is the goal. Traditionally feminine work (housemaking) should be paid and women should be equally paid in traditionally male careers.Women should be free to combine the two, but a good household does make fine children I think,


They are basically a militia, and they are so god damned inhospitable, they are so bad for business and I am so angry about it. If they love the Fatherland so much why are they hurting it?

Stupid brutes!

If they want to fight so much they should join the military and actually get a chance at doing something positive.

(Easy for me to say from all the way away in Canada)

I am happy that I don't have to deal with too many of them here.

Wars Over Resources

In the developed world we have enough now, these wars should be obsolete.

I am actually not sure this is true.

I Feel Like An Asshole For Feeling Like This

After I lost my fiancee I feel like I could loose anybody and it would barely register. I wish I didn't tick like that. I would still care, but I wouldn't be devastated.

Sorry If I Repeat Myself

I Do Take Money Seriously

If you don't respect it it's gone. Mind you I enjoyed being a child and having it spent for me. I kinda want a personal Banker to control my spending so I eat better, stupid cigarettes.

Positive Racism

The problem with it is that people will pre-judge people based on positive stereotypes. It's still always best to see the individual first.

Friday, May 27, 2016

Book I Was Reading

I have been reading "From Dawn to Decadence" by Jacques Barzun. I feel that it has a very astute observation that civilization goes through cycles where primitivism keeps on popping up. I think it needs to be fought, it serves no useful purpose.


I see how successful other people are in getting a decent living around me and do wish I was more healthy and lucky, I also worry that my German heritage is getting me excluded from groups but I am just not informed about it, so I have no proof, just suspicion.


I personally don't worry much about the health issues of cigarettes, probably because I am addicted out of my mind, but it is so ridiculously expensive. I am trying the patch and am having some success, the stronger meds are dangerous because they can interfere with my anti-psychotics.

To People Who Care About Me

I have stopped drinking regularly, it's become a thing I do as an occasion.

Impressive vs Useful

People seem to lean towards rewarding outstanding performance more than utility, it's not logical.

Thursday, May 26, 2016

Artist Stars

I really think MJ made some great records, but hustling and getting enough money to build a private amusement park is ridiculous. It's the reason I am not too upset about big artists getting less money due to things like spotify.

Especially when workers who are vital to the functioning of society get screwed over by their leadership.

It's such an insulting system and it needs to be improved.


I don't really think anyone was better than anyone else in world war 1, there were just winners and losers.

So if it isn't about good vs. bad then I would choose the Kaiser, sue me.

It was a stupid game war though so honestly it's best to say they were all bad governments.

Wednesday, May 25, 2016

Average Racism

I don't subscribe to racism as having much to say about who people really are, but nonetheless some of these racists seem to be so unscientific about racism and using their guts and hearsay to profile people and categorize them based on race.


I do lie about liking or disliking things to friends and family to smooth relations. I don't feel great about it and wonder if any of you folks are reading this and if you would be upset about it.

It was a bit more intense when I was little and I played the peer-pressure game.

It seems to me to be a feature of youth.


I really want to play a Germanic Deity in a Shadowrun campaign. Not a twink, no character sheets for Deities!

Maybe the Deity could be from an expanded Shadowrun specific Pantheon.

I have bought some rule/source books, I am so in love with the Shadowrun universe, I have bias due to my exposure to it at a young age.

Captain America : Civil War

I really liked it, I think it's a great metaphor of how many Americans think they should be running/saving the world and that the United Nations is a better platform for doing that since everybody can participate.

If I Weren't Mentally Ill

I would probably try and find employment with the bureaucracy at this stage in my life so I can get a steady decent income and respectable job. I wish beaurocracies had more steel when it comes to saying no to bad leadership decisions. They should have intelligent qualified leadership outside the publicly elected officials, since getting elected by popular vote doesn't mean you automatically make qualified leadership decisions.

I mean some politician's only qualification seems to be knowing how to sway the public and get elected, and if that's all you got you should not be making any important decisions. #Populism

Multi Culturalsim

I do like having a variety of cultures readily available as opposed to all the same, even if it's just for diverse cuisine.

I have friends with different cultural backgrounds and I value that very highly, that wouldn't be possible in a all-sizes fit one cultural approach.

Tuesday, May 24, 2016


My Father mentioned something a few times about how people just come to Calgary from all over the world make a bunch of money and just leave.

It is rude, I admit that I have had similar thoughts and have tried to move to Vienna though and now I feel like I should give back to the place that helped realize my life by settling down here.

Though Vienna had an active role in helping me too.

Edit: Among many by my reconning.

Monday, May 23, 2016

Jan Böhmermann

Is this the middle ages? A ruler trying to punish a Jester? We should really be beyond this.

Living Standards

I think that with higher living standards it is possible to be kinder to the populace than previously if you find yourself in control when trying to get the economy to thrive.

University Library Access

I wish there a way to get that without having to jump through all the hoops so I could read academic material and base my works off of research.

The research I have done as a student was really cool in terms of how well it functioned through online access, you just need credentials for all the portals to make use of it, and I do believe there is a black library, because I am crazy and see conspiracies everywhere. :P

I Have Barely Any Psychological Training

But I am fairly sure that people can be ranked according on how and how easily they can be manipulated.

I personally don't really feel clean manipulating people too much, guess I am too much of a Gutmensch.

I worry that lots of the highly intelligent are excessively cold, probably because of historical data and all that, it's just sad. Mind you historical data also warns of revolution if you put yourself in palaces and don't give a damn.

Regarding My Second Post On This Blog

The laziness is subsiding, I am getting more energetic all the time.

Mind you I am being pro-active about it too, I have been guzzling coffee and doing other things to make me more active.

I am also probably getting used to my current lifestyle.

Hidden Aristocracy

I feel like there is a modern classified way to make forbidden palaces in plain sight.

I should be a DM.

Saturday, May 21, 2016

This Isn't A Climate Change Denial Post

But scientists are human, and they do make mistakes and some of them are frauds or turn out to be wrong.

Friday, May 20, 2016

The Porn Industry

Since I have worries that the sex-trade is a form of slavery and people just do it to get by and prevents their actualization as humans, though I do think there are legitimate sex-addicts that do it for fun, I don't like supporting the industry.

I think it can be a light form of prostitution.


I have something in common with Hitler, I am probably a bad artist and maybe a bad political activist/wannabe politician.

At least the cause I am in is different.

Though I'd prefer to be a successful political scientist as opposed to a politician.

Tuesday, May 17, 2016


I am liking twitter as a 24/7 newsstream, I've been having movies on in the background while treating my twitter stream like an old school chatroom.

I Believe

I am of the belief that bad circumstances make bad people, so socialist style taking care and educating of the bottom line should be a preventative measure against the kind of mass psychosis seen in the past that leads to atrocities.

Been Suffering

My sleep and thought process has been a bit jumbled and erratic lately, had to clean up my twitter stream and deviantart page a bit.

I hope it goes away, it's pretty good as I write this.

Monday, May 16, 2016

Star Trek As Progressive Entertainment

It has a message that we are working towards something better, even if we won't live to see it, it inspires striving to be better.

Also, when I was little I was very sheltered I find, and how am I going to find inspiration in the real world as a sheltered child?


Since I feel like I am being monitored, I sometimes try and provoke my watchers to come out and say hi. Mind you, that could be seen as an excuse for bad behavior.

I mean I am "crazy" I wouldn't be surprised if there are laws requiring monitoring when people like me live in the open community.

Edit: I am not even mad about it, I don't like to see people running loose and starting a massacre. (It is very Gestapo I admit.)

Saturday, May 14, 2016

Even The Slightest Doubt

If you even have a very slight feeling that something bigger is going on in our universe than what is observable I would always do what is kind to people.

I would always bet on the forces of kindness and goodness.

It's the right decision even if you don't believe in anything, it's simple reciprocity, you are kind and generally people will be kind back. It makes for a better environment to live in. As long as they aren't war zombies.

Thursday, May 5, 2016

Cultural Assimilation

The problem with assimilating cultures that contribute advance is that they won't stop resisting. How much did Germany contribute as a bloodline to human advancement?

Monday, May 2, 2016

Treating Nobles Too Well

It leads to revolt, people just can't take it.

Racial Interbreeding

Clan breeding exclusivity and supremacism, it's a bad way to breed humans, it gives us less diversity to defend ourselves against disease and other assailants.


There is negative and positive racism, so it isn't negative in itself, though it's preferable to not have it, it's volatile since it's a potential source of conflict, I wonder if it can be reduced/eliminated.


Doesn't really mean lot's of money, happiness and security are worth more. Having enough money is nice though, a tip is nice too.

Spoils Of War

I feel like I am a spoil of war due to my blood.

Pretending To Be A Magic User

Never wise, if successful, people will ask for miracles and you'll look a fool.

Pretending You Are Wise

Shows that you think life is a game. I prefer to think it is not.

Edit: Another feature of youth.


Can be foolish, it depends on whether you spend responsibly, it doesn't really do anything for you though unless you win, and even then you might incite negative reaction if you win because it's unearned.


I prefer sports as an engine of motivation. That includes e-sports of course.

E-sports are even less dangerous than traditional sports, so that's even better.

Then there is brand warfare, but that can be like inter-state warfare though, especially when corporations start thinking they are government.


Time is money, and digital currency saves time.

Edit: Also eliminating cash and requiring electronic currency is a good policy to deter crime, I read an article in wired about Sweden's situation and their leading voice in the move away from cash to prevent criminal enterprise.


Non-Government banks shouldn't control policy. I hear that's a problem.

Responsibility In Press

The press can cause human crushes.

Mind you so can other leaders, it's just that the press appears to often feel the need to report everything.


I do think that they are products of their environment, I say this because of people who are descended from SS soldiers.

I don't believe many people were born psychopaths. I am curious though.

I am primarily concerned with leaders doing psychotic things.

I worry that I might be descended from a member of the SS, since as previously stated my father was adopted.

It's not like their creed was evil, loyalty is good, it helps make civilization, it can be abused of course. It should be discerning and not fanatic though.

Saturday, April 30, 2016

Libertarianism Sucks

If you make government weak and small, the vacuum created will be filled by business management, which would make them government. And they don't have a well made system that prevents them from making bad decisions.



No person should have to suffer eternal hellfire for a short lifetme of sin.

Friday, April 29, 2016

Something I Don't Like About Our Lives As Humans

Most people try to help, but we can end up suffering for it.

The Environment

I am conserving water, one does get smelly though. :(


I prefer to revolt within the system, I don't want the blood and the leaders so far that have come after militant revolutions have in most cases become corrupt very quickly or proven wrong.

Democratic values appear to be the way to go.

Cartoons Vs. Live-Action

I am not so sure it is wise to make people so easily venerable, especially when it come to shallow entertainment.

I've Been Thinking About It

I am more of a cosmopolitan than a son of any nation, I still like my heritage though and considering what my heritage is I am strangely proud, that's due to my like of Individualism, or put psychologically my ego.

Entertainment Zones

I wish it were easier/cheaper to get media from all nations, I am curious about nollywood and I am nostalgic for Bud Spencer and Terence Hill movies, I also like to hear different languages in film and prefer them with subtitles.

It wouldn't be that difficult to do, Itunes already has the ability to browse different region's libraries, you just need to be in the respective country or cheat the system in place somehow.

Google Glass

If used responsibly Google Glass would be a great tool for journalists, filmmakers, and photographers, been a fan of the concept since I saw it in Transmetropolitan.

I Really Want To Try The Oculus Rift

I am wondering if I can use it to escape like on a vacation, I remember having good experiences with early VR in he 90s.

Kinda want to be environmentally friendly and reduce my carbon footprint, flying makes you worse than a combustion engine car driver.

The Brain Drain

Social media; it's a way to keep young academics from running away to the world's power centers.

Thursday, April 28, 2016


They are pretty, but insulting, prefer to get paid/compensated.

Fanatic With An A-Bomb

It's a nightmare and sorry I do support military campaigns to prevent that from happening.

It's A Shallow Reason

I became infatuated with Germanic mythology because of Valkeries, mind you I was introduced to them with the "Valkyrie Profile" picture of them, since some of the old stories of them are gross.

But it stuck, it's my mind you know. I have a problem with the fact that I adore women, it's not fair to paint pictures of them and wanting them to conform to my picture.

In Defense Of Royals

This feels a bit weird, but I am revising my stance, people need heroes to function. I just wish we were more self-actualized to not need that, it's a weakness that I am never quite comfortable with. And different kinds of people have different kinds of heroes.

Also, elected heads of state and government end up being pretty much the same thing anyways, especially as evidenced in political families.

I do think that constitutional and democratic monarchies are wise though.

Edit: And celebrities function much the same way.

Peter The Great

I like how Peter the Great supposedly disguised himself and mixed with the common folk. Being in charge and yet being able to go anywhere is cool.

I do have to admit that I fantasize about ruling from the ground without all the required ceremony. I fantasize about a grand spectacle though too. I just think that if I were a ruler it would be more honorable to not be a snob.


The thing about not having a cold logical mind is that we can be creative in interpreting art.
The meaning is ultimately something everyone creates for themselves.

It's just I feel it's potentially more dangerous.


I have been throwing around the thought that we actually live in the future and I am in school not being told yet what year it is.

I Like Having 7-Eleven

I am a customer (I am a night owl), but I do feel guilty about the hours they have to work. I have worked rotating day/night shifts in security and it's not pleasant, though the place I was a guard at was nice and it was peaceful and I even had time to read while on duty. I feel that shift-work like that is very militant.

Besides Being Schizophrenic

I am also somewhat lethargic, I consider it an illness.

Wednesday, April 27, 2016


I don't like being a snob and do generally enjoy video more than literature, it's less work to consume. It has a lot of potential as edutainment.

Edit: Video-Games even more so, because they make you feel like you are a part of the creation. More attention grabbing.

Being A Recipient Of Medical Wellfare

I think basic income is a great idea, I find that I have time to pursue and work on what I want instead of being wage-enslaved. And from what I can gather experiments have been promising.

If Nothing Were Paid For

Whatever is needed that isn't paid for because people refuse to pay for it has to be subsidized, and politics is usually a slow process.

Now That We Are Wired

People who are com-system dependent can be taken control/advantage of with false messages. Something a Luddite doesn't have to worry about.

Ultimate Democracy

Everybody would have to be informed properly and possess the capacity for intelligent educated judgment to have a useful democracy. Otherwise Hitler and other such nonsense is possible.

This Sounds Kinda Scary

I feel it makes me like a Nazi-Scientist. The world is my lab.


Edit: Political Science is scary.

My Ultimate Office Fantasy

I want my office to be on a bullet train. My father would disapprove I think, he thinks it's typical businessman.

I can multitask though, I can enjoy the ride and do work.

Yet More Pronoid Thoughts

I feel that men are mind-controlled by women and that women are secretly the master gender.

Which is a silly thought it would appear, I mean they get treated like they are less than men and their work at home is taken for granted.

I'm still a feminist, my reason triumphs over my more messed up thought processes under this medication. Probably doesn't hurt that I adore women so much that I would enjoy it. Doesn't mean I hate being a man, I still indulge in my maleness.


Humans have more capability for change than many admit, they just do what is comfortable and excuse bad behavior with the justification that it's how they were made.

Just To Calrify

These are just musings, if you like any of my ideas I strongly recommend you do research on the topic, I am just a student.

Having Children Is A Selfish Decision For Some People

"I wasn't asked to be made" is what comes to mind. But it's human to have children so it's also a basic human right.

Edit: Personally I am glad I was created.

Getting Old And Loosing Your Elders

One thing I am curious about is how this affects how you are a person, you don't have anyone looming over you, so you are more free. I just feel that it would make you very grumpy but more of an individual.

Bad News

The novel "The White Plague" makes an excellent point about armed insurrection and terrorism in the modern world, we have members of elite now that can do terrible things to the populace. It's extremely shitty.

Something About Maturing People That Is Dangerous

Dumping people is a mean thing to do, but it can help some people grow.

Good Law

Child protection laws are good, interference with their development is very bad for their proper maturation. I am talking about child predators.

The problem with all this Individualism and "everyone is a beautiful" idealization is that it might encourage criminals to think it's their right to commit a crime to protect their human rights.


I worry that total surveillance and micro-management is the contemporary way of organizing society.

Tuesday, April 26, 2016

Mad Max: Fury Road

There was a line in the movie "Everybody used to have their own show". I have been wishing that I could see more about the people in my family tree, any written word or otherwise.

In the future your family tree will maybe have more stories attached to each individual.

Giving the masses a face. I like to look at my Facebook contacts' webpages, and Dad is an artist so I have things to enjoy from him when I am at the screen.

What Do You Think?

Wanting to be really mature is childish, just a thought.

Thinking As Work

It's in many cases unpaid, lot's of people numb themselves with mindless entertainment and leave the thinking to others.


I Am Having Second Thoughts About My Novel

If it is a success and I cash out I will become one of "those" people, this way I can stay on the ground level.

I suppose I might be a workaholic that way.

Speaking Of Reductionism

I think that university grading is extremely simple, especially in the humanities and arts, it's not a measure of how well you know and apply your knowledge or what value your art has.

I mean obviously in the trades, engineering, and physical sciences you can see how well someone does their work in terms of how well something works. Medicine is also more tricky, but you need to know the fundamentals.


Since I Am Not Part Of A Corporation That I Know Of

I would share most of the credit for my well-being with my family and friends.

So that's the corporation I would make rich if I got rich.

You kinda have to give your dues to businesses to get by anyways.

And government and laws are just usually taken for granted, hence taxes.


The cold-war era news on German television was so much more urgent and serious, the new style is so much more leisurely and stylish.

I get nostalgic for the cold-war war reports, they had such a cold scientific edge to them. As a child it made the news more exciting, making me feel like I was a part of some big event. I am getting old.

Global Currency

If a global currency were able to be stable then it would be advantageous for working on global equality. It would give a more permanent guide to where what is what value where and what can be bought from where at what price.

And if easier to stabilize due to developed nation support it would prevent currency devaluation in struggling regions.

I Know There Are More Reasons

What I don't like about European nations that are against the E.U. is that it sometimes reeks of supremacism, I especially feel that the British and Russians think they are better than the rest of us and they don't need to work together.

Also, they will trade with the rest of Europe anyways, just with a more primitive less democratic mechanism/treaties guiding the interactions.

Monday, April 25, 2016

Dynamic Politics

The obsession with static systems intended to be infallible is not useful, an acceptance of the potential dynamism of laws is useful, politics as a scalpel rather than a mallet.

Edit: It's a reason I really respect the Talmud. I don't agree with the use of doctrine, especially when unnecessary (it is to be employed in primitive societies for them to function I think due to scarcity and resulting aggression),

Sunday, April 24, 2016

Reducing The Scale Of Celebrity Fame

The internet is great for fighting the trend of uber-celebrities dominating the mediascape. You can have mini-celebrities on the local scale.

Sharing is caring you know?

Pride As Part Of A Healthy Psychological Makeup

It doesn't hurt to be happy about who you are when wanting to be happy in general. It's just dangerous when you start thinking you are better than other people, it can be a recipe for supremacism.

Honor Is Tricky

The dishonorable have no problem taking advantage of the honorable. I wouldn't say that giving up honor is the solution, just be very careful, though there is no such thing as a guarantee in life.

Speaking of guarantees, my alienware is coming up on 6 years and is pretty much working like a charm, damn fine investment if you ask me. Also, the pace of requiring new hardware for the latest games is much better than it was when I was a kid. I wonder if cloud computing will become a thing soon, onlive worked great for delivering games on any old terminal, though not having the computing onsite has its disadvantages.


Some wisdom from Anime, young poor people with talent can be recruited and overpowered to do things that may seem appealing, but have negative consequences for their well-being.

It's kinda like being tricked into going to war.

Something I Have To Keep In Mind

I do tend to want the world's workings to conform to my ideal view. But it's an imperfect world with imperfect solutions.

Besides, a conception of perfection is subjective.

I should learn to like complexity in human dishonesty when dealing with how we communicate, organize, and paint a picture of our world. I would have to learn this to be at peace with the lies.

Lot's of these lies are ones we tell to ourselves to make more sense of the world and everyone has different requirements for this.

I don't know if society could function if everything was revealed.

I do believe in a good lie though, I see examples of bad ones all the time though.

A Well Functioning Social Democracy Should Be The Ultimate Revolution Stopper

If there are no large groups of poor then there is no need to revolt. If people are respected as humans with rights and a voice then there is no need for revolution.

Swatch Internet Time

Should totally be everybody's new time format, it's so cool and useful. Besides, decimal is always the way to go.

That is all.



Individualism in a more ultimate form is a way to end war, if people are judged individually and not as statistics relevant to group targeting.

Then it's just cops and robbers.

Quality Over Quantity

I have been dismayed previously about the low birthrate in the first world, but there was something I wasn't considering, infant mortality is at an all time low.

So now quantity isn't as necessary and we have more time to invest into raising outstanding human beings.

Mind you a shrinking population is still not desirable I think, but internationally that isn't a problem yet.

I worry about future problems a lot.

Saturday, April 23, 2016

The Show "Vikings"

There are many things I like about the show, but I primarily like its function as a class in appreciating we don't live there anymore.

Subliminal Implants

Due to the way I respond to certain people on first sight I am worried that I have subliminal implants, I wouldn't be a hard target, I watch the screen like a screen-hound.

Delusions Of Grandeur

I am paranoid about being bread in secret to continue my line. Thanks a lot "Dune"!

Strangely enough my thoughts are positive about it.


I have been worrying that there is some terrible secret that will make me look a fool for about the last hour or so, it's not a very common worry for me, I wonder if it will join my repertoire of psychological unease.

Mind you secrets also have a certain excitement attached to them, since they might be cool.

Friday, April 22, 2016

Levelling The Playing Field

Not being in the world's power centers does suck if you are attracted to them, but the internet is valuable in being able to globalize the conversation about our future.

So far and yet so near.

If only IRC weren't so dead these days, the internet was more of an international playground in some respects when I was growing up. But I do love that I can get international newspapers on the internet now and they have real-time comment sections.

Everyone can have a published voice now, of course time is valuable so mass exposure isn't available to all.


I don't know much about this, but I wonder how different people who have it really good respond to being spoiled in the sense of not giving a damn.


Child Soldiers?

Honestly, I think that people often remain children beyond the legally determined dates that states have.

The world is changed by child armies.

I Don't Want To Live In This Reality Anymore

People get punished for being themselves or they are at least tinkered with. Of course we wouldn't have all these nice fruits of civilization if it weren't so.

Still blows. Especially when it's a flaw that can't be fixed.


More About Choice

Forbidding drugs is insulting to human agency and is probably one of the reasons it doesn't work very well. If someone wants to destroy themselves (referring to the nasty stuff here) it should be their right. It's a medical problem if people are sick. A healthy person should want to maximize their potential and not want to play with fire and risk it all.

It's just that the tragic figure is somewhat romanticized. I know all about the romanticization of my condition, and I just hope to profit from it, but as I just stated that's healthy behavior. Nonetheless I still think that this tragic figure thing we have is perhaps not the greatest contribution to art and therefor people's psychological makeup when it comes to self destructive behavior. Mind you, there are many other reasons people risk their lives and do dangerous things.

The Stories That Make Us Go

Before I had my first psychotic break I had much less of an appreciation of myths that make human psychology function.

I am a bit swamped now though, I am longing for my more scientific cold assessment of our reality right now. Though as a permanent state I am no longer sure which is more enjoyable, leaning towards the scientific, there is less fear involved.

Different Strokes

In defense of fanatics, I am sure their devotion and love is appreciated by some some kinds of people/gods (if you believe in gods and all that).

It's just that fanatics have a bad rep as being violent and harmful.

Being A Fan

I normally consider myself a fan of many things, but I think being an aficionado is better, I don't like the root word of fan: fanatic.

I like to think that I appreciate things in an critical way.

I didn't really consider the root word, fan had kinda crept into my vernacular and I am ditching it.

Aficionado does sound pretentious though. *sigh*


Thursday, April 21, 2016

Isn't It Weird?

420 falls on Hitler's birthday, I wonder if Hitler had smoked pot he would have turned out so angry?

Ok maybe it isn't so weird after all.


Zu Früh Gefreut?

I think it would be tragic and comedic if history proves both sides in the cold war wrong.

Wednesday, April 20, 2016

As A Data Pirate

If you can afford it, always buy! I feel good when I support businesses that I like with money. (I do wish that contemporary corporate culture didn't distribute it so ridiculously unequally in many cases)

I do my best, but I am below the local poverty line on disability support without any additional income and I have to consume media to keep sane! I have a brain to feed here!

It's political activism I say!

Netflix would be adequate if I weren't so picky, I do have a subscription though, they have stuff I watch and I have a few other subscriptions too.


Sunday, April 17, 2016

War In The Heavens

I don't really have proof of there being a higher realm that is related to our lives here on earth beyond what I have already mentioned. But I like to think that we are in the hanging in the balance of some kind of war between the gods, not original I admit, since I do like to play the "Diablo" series of video games.

Maybe when I die I will just be a victim in a war beyond my control. Strangely enough that makes me feel like there was maybe a point to existing so briefly and it's comforting.

As with many aspects of my psychology I wonder how long this thought will remain dominant in my mind. It is more like a fancy than a religious view.

Saturday, April 16, 2016

Are We Viable As A Continued Presence In This Universe Beyond Our Biological Nature?

I am thinking that the highly developed world people are becoming so unnatural that they have stopped breeding like regular humans. The reason that this is a simplification is that it takes away from the value of human agency being supreme over matters of biology.

Wednesday, April 6, 2016

Journalist Warrior

The news is a weapon.

Edit: It seems to me that everybody is in some kind of state of conflict, we are almost all at war with something. Though some get more close to traditional states of warfare, like when journalists go into war-zones and get harmed or killed by militant groups that are their enemies.

Some Green Politics

Greed is not good right now, we have limited resources and should therefore not be wasteful.

Hating People Because They Are Wrong

I think a democratic IDEAL is that we should be able to disagree without getting angry.

The Value Of Art

Is your work valuable to anyone? Even yourself? Then it has value, so this argument of how good art is, is purely academic and aesthetic when dealing with the value of an individual.

When monetary ambition comes into play, then those academic and aesthetic variables come into play.

About The European Union Being A Proto-Type

Regional Supra-National Unions like the E.U. could still have a place in global federal government as an extra layer of government that aids integration. I wrote that it is useful as a proto-type because I was worried that the E.U. may fail and I was justifying it's existence if it that failure comes to pass.

Edit: Also, integration is a great creator of peace, so it is definitely a worthy cause.

Hail Everybody

Individualism is a good movement, the full actualization of everybody should be a goal of any endeavor to improve our lives.

Too bad about the criminal element though.


Justifying inhumanity by using "cultural heritage" as a defense is wrong.

Edit: I'd like to add religion to the list of wrong justifications.

The Primary Reason I Like "The Big Bang Theory"

I live alone, and I get lonely. The characters on "The Big Bang Theory" are like having ersatzfriends to keep me company.

Tuesday, April 5, 2016

Buying People

Even if you can't be bought, maybe people in your circles can be bought.

Saturday, April 2, 2016

My Life Without Star Trek

I only read bits of the bible. As far as my life goes "Star Trek" was my good book. To mention a few things about me that it inspired me to adapt, would be, humaneness, education, and futurism/progressivism.


I realize that something has been stolen from me that is part of a healthy psychological make-up. I have diminished sense of belonging being away from my people. It's not such a huge deal to deal with, but it's still bothersome.

Thursday, March 31, 2016


I am a very democratic, very leftist, politically minded person. So it is definitely out of character to believe in Germanic-National movements, that I have mentioned I think are cool. It's generally the domain of Neo-Nazis, and that's upsetting for sure.

It's a struggle, I also like post national-concepts, so I am never at peace with these feelings of greater family/tribe.

I just think it's so fashionable, I mean many other peoples are all down with tribalism and such, while also being progressive otherwise, it creates a diverse mosaic which can be said to add to the beauty of humanity. It's just the Germanic predicament to have the Nazis ruin YET ANOTHER thing for us. I mean they ruined our place as scientific and cultural leadership around the globe, though not entirley, our role is greatly diminished. For a geek like me there is little to be geeky about that is Germanic, though I still play the videogame Settlers II, and the board game Settlers of Catan (Go German board games!).

And there is definitely that worry that one might be perceived wrongly as just another Neo-Nazi.

Edit: Germany also has some super-fine trains, and Denmark has Lego.

How I Nearly Became A Member Of The Austrian Military

When I was seventeen I wanted to move back to Austria and claim my citizenship, due to the Naturalization Laws I was entitled to Austrian Citizenship before I turned eighteen. But I was dealing with the consulate in Calgary and the application process took so many months that by the time everything was submitted I had turned eighteen.

If I had moved back to Austria (which I did for a while without citizenship a few years later) I would have been drafted into the military or civil service, since Austria has had conscription in place since the founding of the second republic. I was set on joining the military, which my father thought was a good idea. I didn't start experiencing schizophrenic symptoms until I was twenty, so if I had decided to just do the mandatory service time I would have been in and out before I would have been ejected due to being medically unfit to serve, I was otherwise in fine health at the time, so it is likely they would have taken me.

It's strange how a few weeks of sending documents back and forth had such influence on what probably would have been a profound change to my entire life.

I was recently able to obtain Austrian citizenship again due to a temporary change in laws, but since I am on disability benefits here in Canada I wouldn't have qualified.

Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Block Sized Government

I think it would be cool to have tiny subdivisions of government. In residential areas, down to the block or similar size. It would revitalize people's political interest, because it would give them influence where the major players that decide everything seem so far away. It would be cool if your neighbors were all involved in some local policy decisions.

Creating real political communities where you can still know everyone's face.

Thursday, March 24, 2016

More Conspiracy Crap

I feel like facebook is an attempt at mass data-mining for the cause of counter-terrorism.

Monday, March 21, 2016

I Hate The Word "Loser"

That's right Trump, I'm looking at you!

What's the next step after that? Untermenschen?

As much as I appreciate calling Trump a loser, like Elizabeth Warren did, I think the word is so degrading to human dignity and the first step down a slippery slope of judging people like race horses.

And of course everyone I disagree with is Hitler, it doesn't get any more original than that folks.

As A Kraut

This is just shameless self serving indulgence for my conscience, but if you go back far enough I am sure every tribe has wronged some other tribe over something.

Just had to be a white guy in the post-colonial era.

The Dalai Lama is right when he says we should be humans first. I still feel bad though for getting a get out of jail free card from the Dalai Lama for all the shit the white man has been up to.


The Limits Of The Monetary System

You can pour all the trillions you want onto a problem, if the resources aren't there then it's a problem that can't be solved with money.

The reason I bring this up is that domestic/foreign aid can only go so far, that and I feel bad that I am not joining the force of volunteers helping at this moment all over the world.

Twisted Matrix

What if even-though the A.I. massive eventually exceeds us in many or all respects they kept us as their souls instead of hating us in some war?

What do people think about literally becoming the ghost in the machine?

Militant Humanitarianism

I think militaries are ideally suited to do humanitarian work as evidenced by relief efforts usually within a state's own borders done by parts of the local military.

This should be expanded upon, humanitarian corps for helping develop the needy parts of the world and intervening like that instead of securing their own alliances (thinking of NATO and Russia here) continued military dominance.

I think if this kind of a shift in the military's role in future policy making would prevent areas that have a power vacuum, following a undesireable government being removed, from going out of control.

Also, if there is to be a future where the globe harmonizes in terms of equality and human rights; military style organizations would still take their place in society as humanitarian corps in times of disaster. And there might regrettably always be a hostile element in society that needs dealing with, though I do hope that if we create a paradise on earth, that kind of thing might also fade into history.


I wrote about this in a previous blog.

Agent Smith

Crops of humans were lost because it was too nice a matrix?

As much as I like Hugo Weaving's performance, I want him to be wrong so much.

Proletariat Credentials

I have those!

Why bother with a fancy degree when I can draw upon my status as the 99%.

It worked for many revolutionaries!

As I discussed many years ago with someone, I think that another problem, besides the gestapo bullshit, with the socialist revolutions in the early 20th century were built on top of very primitive societies. I think that today's highly developed capitalist societies are much more fertile ground to have socialism flourish, dare I even say communism?

The flower communism the hippies wanted and never got. No guns, just sharing.

Ok, I must admit, I make a sad revolutionary if my idea of a gun is a flower.

Maybe I Read Too Many Dune Novels

I also feel that maybe the power roles of men and women are significantly different when it comes to various different affairs of the species or family or bloodlines, and I am not on the inside of the complex systems of control.

There seems to be a theme in my paranoia thinking that human institutions are more impressive than they appear to me from what I can gather through my information sources.

But I totally got the idea from Frank Herbert.

Parent Paranoia

I feel like parents and grandparents have special hidden societal powers, especially when it comes to their own family line.

Still not wanting to take the plunge and have kids, maybe there are also restrictions that people without children don't have, privileges I am simply not aware of.

I Feel Like I Have Become A Cyborg

I have mentioned my last big breakdown and the new injections I am on.

It's feeling kind of like a rebirth. As a cyborg; I have also mentioned that I am not quite as energetic, enthusiastic, and enthralled by things as I used to be. I don't binge-play video-games anymore, something which very suddenly stopped, I was playing a JRPG (The Last Story) obsessively before my last breakdown and it was awesome. My entertainment regimen is definitely less colorful.

I am glad I have better judgement, because honestly experimenting with drugs seems like a good way to recapture more entertaining states of mind. Though I judge that to be a terrible idea.


The irony of fact that the game was named "The Last Story" and it was a kind of last story for me is not lost on me, I have thought it strange before.

Friday, March 4, 2016

Violent Revolution And The State Of State Martial Power

If you see the human population as one global civilization there are enough people who are in extreme poverty to justify a violent revolution, but today's armed forces in developed nations are so powerful compared to potential revolutions, as well as distant (not just physically, but they are culturally separated from the concerns of these humans) that these militaries can ignore or suppress at leisure.

Any successful violent global revolution would require elite and military support from the developed world.

Saturday, February 27, 2016

Star Trek

It would be nice if Star Trek were hard sci-fi, watching TNG I can't help but notice how bad some of the technobabble is. I still enjoy it for it's message more than for the technobabble, but my scientiffic side would like more effort on making sense, but I suppose they were trying to push the limit of what would be possible in the future. I just remember not noticing this when I was little.

Wednesday, February 24, 2016


So I was watching a "Desperate Housewives" inspired show made in Austria called "Vorstadtweiber", I don't know if I enjoy seeing rich assholes being rich assholes.

Actually I don't. I wish Germany or/and Austria had an anime-like industry. Need the D-Anime.

Thursday, February 11, 2016


One of the reasons I am so alarmist about right wing trends is the fact that Germany was transformed so quickly to Hitler's regime of terror and extermination.

Saturday, February 6, 2016

Yay Smartphones!

I love "from the hip" photography and my smartphone is such a great way to always have a camera in my pocket when I want to snap something.

Been feeling more shutter-happy lately again.

Brought to you by our corporate overlords.

I Am So Deep, NOT!

I was indoctrinated by Star Trek as a child!

I must help unite the peoples of earth, create utopia, and prevent world war three.

They are good ideas! So what if it isn't original!

At least I didn't copy anything in my life from Grand Theft Auto or Cannon Fodder and their ilk.

Tuesday, February 2, 2016


There isn't enough time to enjoy everything, I want to read, see, and play more than I have time to.


This Is Pretty Personal

My father is adopted, so I often wonder abut my bloodline. Beyond the fact that his parents were from Germany I don't know anything.

Maybe they were German Jews that escaped, that would be cool. I am considering getting a DNA test to find out, it's just really expensive. Recently my uncle got to me to sign up for an ancestry research service and they offer DNA tests to see your ethnic makeup and possible relations.

I want to be related to Karl Marx.

Monday, January 25, 2016

CGI Spin

Sometimes I think that the technique of making CGI people indistinguishable from the real thing is something that was already developed and is being kept secret.The propaganda possibilities, especially is severely controlled states, would be numerous.

I would almost think of it as something that should be deemed forbidden due to this.

Then there is S1m0ne in the back of my head,


So I watched "A Serbian Film", well I didn't finish it. I was actually kind of into it until it got all sick. I liked the fact that it had a porn star that was a normal person, I don't like to classify and categorize people too much and fit them into roles.

But man, after the one hour mark it gets all gross, the villains give the protagonist an aphrodisiac that makes him batshit insane and sexually violent. It's puke material seriously.

I am sure somebody likes it though.

It's the first time I have ever really "walked out of the theater" so to say, in recent memory.

More About Criticism

I don't like how it seems accepted that there is an objective view in regards to criticism. Take Mystery Science Theater 3000 for example, they mock "bad" movies, but I enjoy a few that they make fun of, and I am sure there are people who like movies that I don't like. Appreciation is so subjective, I hate the band wagon mentality of the whole thing.

Star Wars Episode I I find is a well made movie, maybe I don't think that some parts are perfect, but nothing really is. There is so much great craftsmanship in CG, camera work, and music that I can't dismiss it as a bad movie. But lot's of people in the fan community just hate it.

Food is like that too, some people like certain dishes and others don't, I don't like it when people see their view as absolute. It has an anti-democratic feel to it, this "not being able to have different views". "You are with us or against us" is garbage.

Friday, January 15, 2016

Party Politics

I think party politics encourages intellectual laze, basically being part of the group makes you want to be on board with the party platform, as opposed to having a more complex political makeup.

And the same goes for art criticism, I think it's a bit strange to have a second hand opinion. Though it is still interesting to see someone's well thought through take on something to look for details you didn't notice. Mind you, I think that's where the whole "ruined" thing comes from. Ignorance can be bliss, unless you are ignorant of an oncoming train.


Prototype global currency, I wonder if it will evolve into one that replaces current regional currencies and if it will eventually get government support.

I know it's a libertarian's wet dream, but I can appropriate it, because I'm planning on ruling the world one day.

Also, keep on seeing people in media that look like people I know/have met. I'm not sure it's such a big deal, people do have doppelgangers.

Wednesday, January 13, 2016

Feeling Guilty

I know the problems the Trekkie community has with the Star Trek Beyond trailer. But I do like me some Sabotage!

Wednesday, January 6, 2016

Looking At The World Of Today And Of Yesteryear

Considering the kind of awful regimes we in the Euro-American world do business with I think that if Nazi Germany hadn't been so militarily aggressive we would have let it do it's thing.

It's a depressing thought.

Tuesday, January 5, 2016


Even after all the intel leaks lately I wonder what is still being kept secret from us.

I also wonder if I would agree with any of it being classified. There is mass panic and other problems to consider.

Sunday, January 3, 2016

All This Anti-Police Sentiment

When I was cuffed when the police was called after a breakdown I resisted and it took five officers to throw me in the van. I am grateful that they were all professional and didn't hurt me, I am sorry I resisted but I was not quite myself at the time. When the first cuff was on one wrist I panicked and tore the other hand away and a struggle ensued.

Well at least this police story didn't end in tragedy, I think there are good cops and bad cops just like in the movies. Also the racial profiling isn't such a thing north of the border it appears. Though I am white of course.

The one female officer that first approached me was actually quite friendly. If they hadn't decided to put handcuffs on me I probably would have gotten into the squad car without resisting. The cuffs just sent me into a panic, I also didn't really think they would do that.

The thing is I am not a cop or soldier hater, I respect what they are supposed to do in civilized society when things don't work out. I just wish it weren't necessary and that there weren't bad cops and soldiers. I don't like how when some officers do something wrong, they are targeted in general, it should be just the wrongdoers, if you generalize than you are also guilty of profiling which is of course ironic.

I am of course critical of the militarization of the police, especially in the United States, it doesn't help when officers are trained to think of civilians as hostile forces and not citizens with rights. I have said in conversation that if the U.S. government ever becomes corrupt enough to use it's armed forces for mass police-state style suppression of the population at large, their forces, due to the nature of American patriotism, would largely disobey orders. The military might actually rebel. I think it's a cool feature of American patriotism and hope it endures. If only we lived in a global federation with this feature, it's still all this "us and them" bullshit.

Edit: When I wrote this I wasn't aware of how much racism still exists in Canada in the system and otherwise. I blame it Canada's really good PR. I apologize for my ignorance.

I Am An Internet Era Person

I am the tiny artist/intellectual. I fill the cracks between the giants. The internet is better than peddling on the sidewalk no? Maybe not, I don't know, selling stuff on the sidewalk takes up so much time, and then there are the legal requirements and paying for printing costs. I will just pretend that I will go viral and become famous, or something like that and become a giant and make lot's of money.

That's normal no? I am not sure I want to remain tiny and (first world)poor.

It is nice that you are reading this though, hurrah for exposure!

But I suppose even old me has some space to take up in this society, I can only think of the wretched of the earth and their daily struggle for survival, this life I have isn't so bad I guess.

My Grandmother passed away yesterday, I spent a time living with her as I mentioned and she was a big part of growing up too, helping raise me and my sister. I irrationally hope that I will see her again and will miss her as I miss many that have passed on.

I do want to make the people in my life proud of my achievements, even the ones that are no longer with us.