Saturday, September 9, 2017

The Reason I Am So Open About My Condition

I was told that I shouldn't label myself as "schizophrenic" by a friend because all my bios online include that. The reason I do it though is that I feel I can help reduce stigma and give a face to something that still has a mystique (often a negative one) in pop-culture.

Though as I have mentioned there is also the fact that I can gain from this mystique. Gotta look out for myself you know?

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

University Of Calgary

I got accepted as an undergrad at the U of C majoring in Political Science, I hope I can get a degree out of it, maybe even a PhD. I am excited for September, I hope it won't be a fruitless endeavour, though learning new things in itself is valuable so it won't be wasted time even if I am not mentally competent enough to earn a degree or more.

It is a bit discouraging to be thirty-five going into studies for a bachelor, I wanted to have my bachelor in political science by my early or mid-twenties originally, but my disability and finances interfered. Still, it's nice to at least have hope that I can still have professional success in academia since politics means so much to me and I want to help make the world a better place for everyone to live in.

My Wedding

It was a nice ceremony, with a few friends and family. I got married on the 23rd of July 2017. So far it's been good, I hope it will be an enduring relationship, I feel like I can help in raise Asher and provide support to Tammy, eventhough I have a disability and am poor by Canadian standards.

I like marriage, I am agnostic, so I just think it's cool to show commitment to a relationship, I don't really get much into the spirituality of it.

Having Children

I have been lately been desiring to have my own children more and more, I know I have said in the past that I am against it, but I really want to be a father now. I can change my mind I feel. I have discussed it with my wife and we agreed that we don't have enough money to properly raise a child, so it's not happening for now. I am surprised at the urge that has been in my thoughts lately though, I am a bit of a slave to my animal instincts I suppose.

I have been enjoying being a stepfather, I like it when Asher comes to do stuff with me, though he is usually in his room on his console. It is a good feeling to help, being a single mom is difficult, and my mom was a single mom for many years and I am grateful. So I have started playing the lottery, so I can procreate if we win. You think one could kickstart this, name the child after the highest donor as a reward? I dunno, it's kinda weird, but I am not dismissing the thought entirely, also I kinda doubt it would work.

Thursday, July 13, 2017

Again With The VLOG, I Changed My Mind, The Last Entry Wasn't The Last

I have decided to start blogging again, I don't like the VLOG anymore, I am noticing that my delivery is very stiff and wooden, I haven't taken any acting lessons ok? I'll probably film a last episode concluding it, I find I prefer to write than perform, it wasn't so appealing to film after the novelty wore off, also I didn't go viral like I had hoped, lol.

What's new?

I am planning to get married on the 23rd of July. Here's to a new life! I quite enjoy my fiance's company, I think it will be a good partnership, I wish she didn't have to work so hard though, I feel kinda useless just "working" on my art and earning nothing, working in quotation marks because I earn nothing and it's not like any of my day jobs, because I enjoy my work.

I still haven't started my proposed photography project that I mentioned earlier, not sure when I will do that yet.

My manuscript is being edited and I am not yet sure how I am going to go about publishing it, details to follow.

I have been despairing that so many people aren't like-minded and there are so many, sorry to be insulting, "political primitives" roaming about getting the "Fly Weight Hitlers" elected. At least the French election didn't turn out disastrous like the American one, but still, another neo-liberal douche.

I am still waiting to hear back from the University of Calgary on whether I got accepted to start on getting a bachelor of arts with a major in political science in the fall, I am hoping I get accepted, I have wanted to get a degree in poli-sci since I was a teen, and I am still very passionate about politics and have enjoyed all my classes so far, I don't know if I would make such a good scientist though, I am a bit too emotional about my political beliefs, which isn't terribly scientific of me. I wonder again if I will make it, and maybe even get my PhD in poli-sci one day, I have my doubts my mind is capable of pulling that off though. It would be so cool to be a scientist though, it's one of my childhood ambitions, I got into art when I was diagnosed with schizophrenia and felt that I couldn't achieve my dreams, and obviously take advantage of the romanticism surrounding madmen, but I have come to love my art in the meantime and it is fun to do, but when I was a child my goal was never to become an artist I must admit.

I wish more people interacted with comments, I have tweeted some famous people with no luck, not surprising considering the volume, but still, it would make my day. I see all these thousands of comments and wish people would interact with me more, I made a friend on DeviantART though, he lives in Calgary too and likes my photography, so even if it isn't millions of fans, it is nice to be appreciated and have a new fan. I really wish I could have more discussions on this blog or on youtube, I am pouring out my heart and mind and kinda wish I had a fan community, I am so jealous of the pros. I am probably cursed to remain obsure, I have to learn to take pride in being an obscure artist I suppose, there is the advantage that I can just do passion projects and not just cater to the wallets of the masses. Maybe my academic ambitions will be fulfilled, but that is also not certain yet.


Friday, June 2, 2017

More VLOG info

I have decided to do the VLOG instead of this blog, so this may be my final entry here.

Saturday, April 29, 2017

VLOG continued

So I am quite enjoying filming the vlog, I switched to english in the second episode, if you haven't checked it out, please do so.

Up to four episodes already, but they are all under two minutes.

Thursday, April 20, 2017

VLOG

Started a VLOG on youtube, don't know if I will stick with it, but it's a fun project. I am speaking in German in the first episode. Check it out https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=80uCyS5UyHE.

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

Democratic Communism

Why isn't this a thing? An advanced communist ideology with the benefits of the respect of human rights, especially freedom of speech? Also communism as a reform movement, not a violent revolution.

I should start my own party and write a manifesto, but that sounds like a lot of work.

I think after the Stalinist disaster, Communism needs a new branch to distinguish itself, both from the soviet horror and the rest of the original post-Lenin mess. A new manifesto would have to include the coming revolution in automation, which Marx of course didn't predict.

Tuesday, April 18, 2017

Upcoming Changes To My DeviantART Page

I am currently chronologically ordering my journal project and enhancing the resolution on some images so they can be sold through the DeviantART store in larger sizes (yes,yes I know the image quality isn't high enough, but some people just want big prints even with image distortion, like me, and some of those photos were from my sony floppy Cybershot, so the resolution is laughable).

So there will be a short period where none of the content will be available since I will be resubmitting my photos.

In Case You Are Wondering Where My Fiction On This Blog Went

I archived the posts on the server, I will continue writing fiction. I have a collection of currently over 16000 words and am wanting to add to it and publish it as a book/ebook when I feel it is long enough.

Monday, April 17, 2017

Photography Project

I had an idea for a photography project I can do, I want to ask Calgarian spiritual leaders about their thoughts about their religion and schizophrenia and get a photo of them with their attached thoughts.

I should get some nicer clothes.

Saturday, March 25, 2017

Kasperltheater

When I was a child I referred to the government seen debating on TV as a "Kasperltheater" (from the German puppet theatre). I think this was telling that I was already somewhat paranoid as a child, thinking that the government was just a show to amuse the masses while the agents of the status quo kept running the instruments of state. Taking this further, I still often find myself thinking that contemporary forms of democracy are largely an opiate to make people feel better about their role in the world while the bourgeoisie keep on doing the same things they have been doing since they started their tenure as rulers of society.

I wonder if this recent resurgence of the right and more nationally centred platforms is just another way to make a certain element of society placated. My evidence is that the world has been largely doing the same thing, despite war, that it has been doing since civilization began, also Pharaos conned the masses into believing they were gods, which is evidence that people are not really that intelligent on average.

Hate me for calling you stupid! I am the worst politician ever!

Monday, March 6, 2017

If

If I become financially successful enough with any of my endeavours, I want to open a photography studio. I want to take portraits of people. I really like good portraits and I would, in fact, be willing to pay a pretty penny to have good ones taken of me and my new family. Now I remember that I said I would also open an arcade in Calgary, my current plan would be to fund someone else to manage the arcade then, I would be the money, not the brains.

Thursday, February 23, 2017

The Post State World

I think patriotism is even too strong an emotion for one's fatherland/motherland, it's so outdated. I mean can't we just be like a global sports league and have teams that we cheer for, why does it have to be so noble to be a patriot, I think it is more important to love one's fellow humans around the planet than just one group.

I don't think culturally whitewashing everything would be great either, I love ethnic diversity as long as it doesn't infringe on human rights.

But shaming someone for not being patriotic or taking patriotism lightly should end. Don't you love your family and friends more than some abstract concept of nation that just serves to manipulate people?

And how has multiculturalism failed exactly? The local multicultural food scene is vibrant. Give it a chance. It's not like multiculturism means changing one's own culture in favor of another, many cultures live in Calgary and I feel like this should be normal. Perhaps its failure lies in the recent resurgence of far-right parties I admit.

That's it! I am going to mind control the world! They can't get along? I will make them!

Wednesday, February 22, 2017

Nazi Victory

You know, if the stupid fucking people of the world are gonna elect proto-fascist dickheads and "our nation first" morons and descend into another world war then the axis alliance of the second world war might as well have won!

That way there would be more German food in Calgary!

Besides by now, the nazis would have probably changed into something different, a ruthless society probably can't sustain itself that long. Or they would have blown up the whole planet in another war if their alliances fell apart.

Wait, there is lot's of Japanese food in Calgary! Lucky Japanese people, people like their food more than ours. The Japanese occupation of the local cuisine scene is welcome by this angry Kraut! Long live the Japanese-German alliance!

Some angry Israeli should reply to this post by saying "You can stick your Bratwurst!" Preferably the PM of Israel, I could use the publicity!

Thursday, December 8, 2016

Are People Really That Different?

It must be the case that humans are actually quite different to each other, what seems intuitive to me politically is obviously not what lots of people think.

I didn't grow up in a household that was socialist or anything like that, I am not emulating things from my childhood, what makes me such a convinced socialist? I mean I am not even exposed to that much socialist propaganda, I would like to think that I just thought it sounded right. Why are there so many people voting for regressive politicians? I wish I could experience being another human being so that I could truly know their thought process, I am curious how different they experience reality. Maybe it isn't as important to them, it's maybe just something that happens far away to them, so it just becomes a fashion statement? It's frustrating, why would anyone want to live in a racist, homophobic police state? Lots of people voted for Hitler obviously, you could say that it was out of desperation though, things were really bad when he got elected, nothing like now. Are there seriously people on the top who just want to mess with people? Must be. Who would want less security from the government? I don't get it. Is it really that important to be in a dog eat dog world that people would fight for it? It's sounds stupid to me I am sorry.

It is nice to have variety in many things, but I wouldn't mind if people thought more like me.

And where does all this hate come from? I understand punishing a criminal, or looking down on backward cultural practices. But just because you are of a different race? It's all so god damned stupid.

I supported Bernie and got Trump, lately I am more and more glad that I don't have to spend eternity here.

Friday, November 4, 2016

Update To People Who Read This Blog

I no longer live alone, I moved in with my fiance and her son. It's definitely less lonely and that is good, but her son sure is a handful.

I had a psychotic break in the summer and wound up in the mental ward again, it was a bummer. I am now on an increased dose, I hope that prevents this from happening again, I am really sick of it and thought it wouldn't happen again since it had been over three years. Though I must say on the increased dose I have even less symptoms, also now that I have classes on campus again and live with people my sleep is more regulated, which probably helps too.

One Of The Reasons Why My Blogs Keep Disappearing

I dunno, I have mentioned that I was all conflicted about my national identity and so on. Screw national identity, I want to be a human first. It's really just like a fashion choice, I have stated that I didn't think of "Garfield" for example as American when I was a child, it was just "Garfield", so it was learned behavior and a choice. Though cultural and regional distinctiveness is cool I don't think it should define us to any deep extent. We should be good humans first. Patriotism is also just a way to manipulate the masses, Marx was right.

I don't really like answering the question "Where are you from" anyways.

Also, you can't really be neighbors with a whole city or nation, you can be neighbors with your neighbors. It's not like I know every member of nation personally, I have my circle of friends and family and that is my nation.

Monday, October 31, 2016

My Mind

It's strange how the mind works, as mentioned I do believe there is more meaning to existence than is readily visible. I am not a bible thumper by any stretch of the imagination though, since I have had no holy visions and won't take another person's word for what religion or mythology have true stories. It was briefly comforting me since the fact that I do believe something beyond cold scientific process is going on in our reality might mean there is also more in store for me than just death.

The strange part of how the mind works is referring to how this metaphysical thought is easily transplanted by more mundane things, like checking facebook, or worrying about my status in society. I wish I were more focused on the important metaphysical thoughts than on the basic thoughts of day to day drudgery, after all, this life appears to be fairly straightforward, short, and perhaps meaningless compared to the endless possibilities of existence.

Sunday, October 16, 2016

Resiliency

I worry too much about my future I feel, I mean to worry about it all is obviously smart, but I worry all the time. I worry if I will ever have anything resembling a career, and honestly I don't really need one to get by, it would be good for my self-worth and all, but I have limitations that hinder me for fully realizing myself as an adult.

I need to be cool, realize that I have it pretty good and that anything that comes my way will be dealt with.

Also, I have more support now with Tammy, which is awesome, I didn't think guys like me get to have ladies, especially successful ladies.

Tuesday, October 4, 2016

Twitter

The first U.S. VP debate was streamed live on twitter, please twitter do more of this, you should have sport events and more on twitter live, for a fee of course.

Oh yeah, the debate, it seems the basic defense for Trump's outbursts seems to be that he doesn't mean it and he isn't a seasoned politician. He still rubs me the wrong way.

Monday, October 3, 2016

Realists

I do worry that realists have it all figured out and I am just a naive idealist hoping that basic human nature doesn't always triumph in everything.

Darwin depresses me, I have to believe that people can be nice, maybe if the elite weren't so greedy people could be free to be nicer. Things like the welfare queen myth don't help, and propaganda from the late 19th century in America was basically the same, though with African American men doing the same kind of thing.

If you are a Realist, just note that the American Dream isn't helpful when getting virtuous citizens, I know I conflict in ideology a bit because I claim to be an Individualist and I don't think everyone's primary engine of motivation should be to make it to the top, since that isn't realistic or helpful for most people. I suffer from this as well, I fantasize about being important and successful of course, but I try to think of how being good makes life better. And as always, ethics before religion.

Marx

If Marx was right about Capitalism eventually crushing itself, maybe all this global trade liberalization can set the stage for a truly global revolution to happen much more smoothly. Since the global trade liberalization and removal of borders can even out cultural differences if it include a cultural component (it does). So the world will be culturally very Western (unless the rising economic powers in the other parts of the world start pumping out more monocultural components like Bollywood, Kung-Fu, and Anime). If only the "Clash of Civilizations" didn't appear to be a currently active ingredient of international relations, mind you ISIS will eventually go away I hope.

Sunday, September 18, 2016

Lo And Behold

I quite liked the movie, I especially liked the concept of thinking of humanity as a fluid, it makes sense considering how many existential threats we have to deal with.

Wednesday, September 14, 2016

Voting For Trump Sends The Wrong Message

If Trump is elected President, it will just embolden the kind of people who like the kind of racist xenophobic filth that spews from his mouth.

Friday, September 9, 2016

The Coming Revolution In Automation

I think it's wise to plan ahead for the coming revolution in automation which will kill work; with basic income programs, so that the savings in labor costs don't create poverty.

Sunday, August 21, 2016

The Problem With Politics Online In It's Current State

There are just too many anarchist hackers! Imagine an election being hacked! That would be a disaster!

Also people still make too many snap judgements when dealing with online activity.

There Should Be A Superhero That Takes On All The Supervillains Ever Created

And it should be a tiny girl.

Friday, August 19, 2016

Political Participation

I think letter writing campaign and petitions accessible from the computer are a good way to keep individuals interested in politics. Online media also helps giving people an ability to feel like they matter no matter how small the situation. Accepting micro donations from the computer also helps people keep their interest since they can speak with their money, and feel like they are part of something greater than their individual lives. Blogs teach us that are thoughts matter even if they are just for private or inner circle activity.

The democratic deficit must be fought or economists will rule over political scientists and treat the population like an ant-hill.

I Agree With PC Gamer

The VR headsets need to be more convenient to get mass market appeal. These wires gotta go and they have to be lighter.

Tuesday, August 9, 2016

Things To Do Whilst Thinking

I like to think while I am doing certain things, one weird thing that helped me have a very intense thought process was watching multiple entertainment video streams at once, my mind was drawing independent conclusions while being stimulated, ironic considering video entertainment is often used to numb the higher thought process. It was related to the videos and yet related to my innermost thoughts at the same time, it's probably because the mind can't focus on any one stream and therefore plays around with itself. The choice of video is obviously important too, it should definitely not be porn! :D

Thinking in silence does work though, it's just lonely here.

Taking Advantage Of Human Aggression For Productiveness

I feel that all this aggression in media serves as a substitute motivator to get people working. #Illuminati

Thursday, August 4, 2016

Friday, July 29, 2016

More About My Fascination With Germanic Mythology

I love that there is a dialogue and sharing of power with gods. Not just a totalitarian regime.

Script

Casey and me are working on a film script. It's about our conversations and our Friendship.

Sunday, July 24, 2016

Bumpy Ride

On my way to Mom's on public transit, still haven't caught the latest lrt model, oops just missed my station.

Friday, July 22, 2016

Being A Marvel Fan

I do believe that mixing up mythologies is wise and useful in the interests of religious harmony.

Germanic Mythology

I find it strange that the Catholic Church is possessive of me though I seek truth in the ancient Germanic Mythology. I would consider myself some who believes in the Germanic Gods before the Catholic God. And I am a peaceful person at heart.

So I renounce my Catholicism! Hopefully nothing bad will happen because of it, there are many Religious Zealots in Calgary it appears.

Thursday, July 21, 2016

Star Trek Beyond

If you love or like Star Trek I would highly recommend watching this latest film. The Starbase Yorktown is breathtaking! It had the high quality action that has become the trademark of the post ST:TMP films, but I didn't mind. It had a message of peace over aggression and war, which is in the finest tradition of Star Trek and Gene Roddenberry. It had a nod to the pre Kelvin Timeline Prime Timeline in the form of the young Spock receiving a picture of the original crew from one of the later original six movies!

Enough said!

Tuesday, July 19, 2016

Monday, July 18, 2016

Netflix

They just secured a deal to stream the new Star Trek series internationally.

Edit : Though not in the United States or Canada. :(

Cowboy Bebop

The 20th Century needs to rest in peace.

Saturday, July 16, 2016

End Of The Cold War?

The more and more I look at the news I realize that the Cold War isn't over, the opponents have just shrouded under new flags and Rhetoric.

Wednesday, June 29, 2016

X-Men Apocalypse

I think the message to protect the less powerful/powerless is very good. Even if you can see that you have extraordinary ability.

Sunday, June 26, 2016

Poverty As A Crime

I do hope we can grow beyond systems that treat people who are poor as having "deserved" it. There are so many examples of elites participating in criminal activity, so there is little room for saying that the elite was born better, though some elite crimes (like criminalizing the poor) are not punishable offenses (unless you are a militant revolutionary).

Of course if you are poor and miserable it is more likely that you will try drugs or shoplift, but that shouldn't be overpunished. In fact I do think that stealing bread is no crime.

Living Below The Current Canadian Poverty Line

The reasons I don't consider myself poor are that I don't have to worry about shelter, food, and I can speak my mind openly without fear of the government punishing me, well unless I have a psychotic break and start spouting nonsense.

I also have my own place (admittedly I rent, so I can get thrown out which stinks), and don't live in a shelter.

So Calgary is a pretty nice place for me to live with my problems.

Tuition

I had a government student loan in Canada and it didn't cover all the costs associated with going to University. What gives? They expect you to do a full course load and have a job? The student loan debt is bad enough, it should at least work properly. Why can't everywhere be like Germany? No tuition, just need the grades.

Please don't get worse, if we are going to have to have class warfare it should at least reduce systems of being "high-born" into wealth and privilege giving access to education, what's so wrong with merit?

And while I am at it, isn't everyone valuable to the functioning of society, should we not all have comparable rewards? I don't think this overcompensation of the ruling elite is good (It's not even good for the elite, ever heard of the French revolution?). Down with class warfare.

Friday, June 24, 2016

Primitivism

All this political primitivism, the brexit is just a sign of this reawakening of national sovereignty movements winning against the progressive regional movements. It's a return to old ways of doing politics, eventhough the E.U. is flawed as it stands it is still better than this small-minded nonsense. It has decent seperation of power and voter participation, so the E.U. yet another victim of neo-liberalism and it's out of control banking sector. But these institutions aren't static, they can change.

Wednesday, June 22, 2016

A German Epic

The unification of the German State in the late 19th century was a good thing. We get all these high production value movies about how awful we were in the NS period, why not make a movie to make us feel good about ourselves?

Maybe it's too early though.

Monday, June 20, 2016

Credibility

I am sad, I think the fact that I am schizophrenic just harms any cause I take up if I get noticed by the masses. Maybe it's best if I stay in the margins.

Monday, May 30, 2016

Starship Troopers

As a hive mind I think we take orders sometimes from other species, we communicate with eachother. It's weird but I am an animal friend so I think it makes things more interesting. And since we are cooperating between species we might as well be diplomatic to improve relations and resource extraction.

Even if you think it's offensive to think like this it doesn't mean you are right.

I Have Dark Thoughts

As a response to Doom I want to invade hell with the fallen SS. It's how I fight demons.

I'd totally commission that video game.

The Novel I Was Working On

I turned it into a short story, I didn't want to drone on.

Saturday, May 28, 2016

Patriarchy Smashing Conspiracy Theories

I am worried that Power Feminists are killing off the Alpha males since they would naturally be the keepers of the Patriarchy or at least feminizing them. I think it would be dumb, it would make the women miserable. I know that women even love men who are jerks, and I am not saying that men should be like that, they should be educated and possibly sedated to be kinder.

As always, full equality is the goal. Traditionally feminine work (housemaking) should be paid and women should be equally paid in traditionally male careers.Women should be free to combine the two, but a good household does make fine children I think,

Neo-Nazis

They are basically a militia, and they are so god damned inhospitable, they are so bad for business and I am so angry about it. If they love the Fatherland so much why are they hurting it?

Stupid brutes!

If they want to fight so much they should join the military and actually get a chance at doing something positive.

(Easy for me to say from all the way away in Canada)

I am happy that I don't have to deal with too many of them here.

Wars Over Resources

In the developed world we have enough now, these wars should be obsolete.

I am actually not sure this is true.

I Feel Like An Asshole For Feeling Like This

After I lost my fiancee I feel like I could loose anybody and it would barely register. I wish I didn't tick like that. I would still care, but I wouldn't be devastated.

Sorry If I Repeat Myself

I Do Take Money Seriously

If you don't respect it it's gone. Mind you I enjoyed being a child and having it spent for me. I kinda want a personal Banker to control my spending so I eat better, stupid cigarettes.

Positive Racism

The problem with it is that people will pre-judge people based on positive stereotypes. It's still always best to see the individual first.

Friday, May 27, 2016

Book I Was Reading

I have been reading "From Dawn to Decadence" by Jacques Barzun. I feel that it has a very astute observation that civilization goes through cycles where primitivism keeps on popping up. I think it needs to be fought, it serves no useful purpose.

Success

I see how successful other people are in getting a decent living around me and do wish I was more healthy and lucky, I also worry that my German heritage is getting me excluded from groups but I am just not informed about it, so I have no proof, just suspicion.

Smoking

I personally don't worry much about the health issues of cigarettes, probably because I am addicted out of my mind, but it is so ridiculously expensive. I am trying the patch and am having some success, the stronger meds are dangerous because they can interfere with my anti-psychotics.

To People Who Care About Me

I have stopped drinking regularly, it's become a thing I do as an occasion.

Impressive vs Useful

People seem to lean towards rewarding outstanding performance more than utility, it's not logical.

Thursday, May 26, 2016

Artist Stars

I really think MJ made some great records, but hustling and getting enough money to build a private amusement park is ridiculous. It's the reason I am not too upset about big artists getting less money due to things like spotify.

Especially when workers who are vital to the functioning of society get screwed over by their leadership.

It's such an insulting system and it needs to be improved.

WWI

I don't really think anyone was better than anyone else in world war 1, there were just winners and losers.

So if it isn't about good vs. bad then I would choose the Kaiser, sue me.

It was a stupid game war though so honestly it's best to say they were all bad governments.

Wednesday, May 25, 2016

Average Racism

I don't subscribe to racism as having much to say about who people really are, but nonetheless some of these racists seem to be so unscientific about racism and using their guts and hearsay to profile people and categorize them based on race.

Guilty

I do lie about liking or disliking things to friends and family to smooth relations. I don't feel great about it and wonder if any of you folks are reading this and if you would be upset about it.

It was a bit more intense when I was little and I played the peer-pressure game.

It seems to me to be a feature of youth.

Shadowrun

I really want to play a Germanic Deity in a Shadowrun campaign. Not a twink, no character sheets for Deities!

Maybe the Deity could be from an expanded Shadowrun specific Pantheon.

I have bought some rule/source books, I am so in love with the Shadowrun universe, I have bias due to my exposure to it at a young age.

Captain America : Civil War

I really liked it, I think it's a great metaphor of how many Americans think they should be running/saving the world and that the United Nations is a better platform for doing that since everybody can participate.

If I Weren't Mentally Ill

I would probably try and find employment with the bureaucracy at this stage in my life so I can get a steady decent income and respectable job. I wish beaurocracies had more steel when it comes to saying no to bad leadership decisions. They should have intelligent qualified leadership outside the publicly elected officials, since getting elected by popular vote doesn't mean you automatically make qualified leadership decisions.

I mean some politician's only qualification seems to be knowing how to sway the public and get elected, and if that's all you got you should not be making any important decisions. #Populism

Multi Culturalsim

I do like having a variety of cultures readily available as opposed to all the same, even if it's just for diverse cuisine.

I have friends with different cultural backgrounds and I value that very highly, that wouldn't be possible in a all-sizes fit one cultural approach.

Tuesday, May 24, 2016

Dad

My Father mentioned something a few times about how people just come to Calgary from all over the world make a bunch of money and just leave.

It is rude, I admit that I have had similar thoughts and have tried to move to Vienna though and now I feel like I should give back to the place that helped realize my life by settling down here.

Though Vienna had an active role in helping me too.

Edit: Among many by my reconning.

Monday, May 23, 2016

Jan Böhmermann

Is this the middle ages? A ruler trying to punish a Jester? We should really be beyond this.

Living Standards

I think that with higher living standards it is possible to be kinder to the populace than previously if you find yourself in control when trying to get the economy to thrive.

University Library Access

I wish there a way to get that without having to jump through all the hoops so I could read academic material and base my works off of research.

The research I have done as a student was really cool in terms of how well it functioned through online access, you just need credentials for all the portals to make use of it, and I do believe there is a black library, because I am crazy and see conspiracies everywhere. :P

I Have Barely Any Psychological Training

But I am fairly sure that people can be ranked according on how and how easily they can be manipulated.

I personally don't really feel clean manipulating people too much, guess I am too much of a Gutmensch.

I worry that lots of the highly intelligent are excessively cold, probably because of historical data and all that, it's just sad. Mind you historical data also warns of revolution if you put yourself in palaces and don't give a damn.

Regarding My Second Post On This Blog

The laziness is subsiding, I am getting more energetic all the time.

Mind you I am being pro-active about it too, I have been guzzling coffee and doing other things to make me more active.

I am also probably getting used to my current lifestyle.

Hidden Aristocracy

I feel like there is a modern classified way to make forbidden palaces in plain sight.

I should be a DM.

Saturday, May 21, 2016

This Isn't A Climate Change Denial Post

But scientists are human, and they do make mistakes and some of them are frauds or turn out to be wrong.

Friday, May 20, 2016

The Porn Industry

Since I have worries that the sex-trade is a form of slavery and people just do it to get by and prevents their actualization as humans, though I do think there are legitimate sex-addicts that do it for fun, I don't like supporting the industry.

I think it can be a light form of prostitution.

Yuck

I have something in common with Hitler, I am probably a bad artist and maybe a bad political activist/wannabe politician.

At least the cause I am in is different.

Though I'd prefer to be a successful political scientist as opposed to a politician.

Tuesday, May 17, 2016

Twitter

I am liking twitter as a 24/7 newsstream, I've been having movies on in the background while treating my twitter stream like an old school chatroom.

I Believe

I am of the belief that bad circumstances make bad people, so socialist style taking care and educating of the bottom line should be a preventative measure against the kind of mass psychosis seen in the past that leads to atrocities.

Been Suffering

My sleep and thought process has been a bit jumbled and erratic lately, had to clean up my twitter stream and deviantart page a bit.

I hope it goes away, it's pretty good as I write this.

Monday, May 16, 2016

Star Trek As Progressive Entertainment

It has a message that we are working towards something better, even if we won't live to see it, it inspires striving to be better.

Also, when I was little I was very sheltered I find, and how am I going to find inspiration in the real world as a sheltered child?

Monitored

Since I feel like I am being monitored, I sometimes try and provoke my watchers to come out and say hi. Mind you, that could be seen as an excuse for bad behavior.

I mean I am "crazy" I wouldn't be surprised if there are laws requiring monitoring when people like me live in the open community.

Edit: I am not even mad about it, I don't like to see people running loose and starting a massacre. (It is very Gestapo I admit.)

Saturday, May 14, 2016

Even The Slightest Doubt

If you even have a very slight feeling that something bigger is going on in our universe than what is observable I would always do what is kind to people.

I would always bet on the forces of kindness and goodness.

It's the right decision even if you don't believe in anything, it's simple reciprocity, you are kind and generally people will be kind back. It makes for a better environment to live in. As long as they aren't war zombies.

Thursday, May 5, 2016

Cultural Assimilation

The problem with assimilating cultures that contribute advance is that they won't stop resisting. How much did Germany contribute as a bloodline to human advancement?

Monday, May 2, 2016

Treating Nobles Too Well

It leads to revolt, people just can't take it.

Racial Interbreeding

Clan breeding exclusivity and supremacism, it's a bad way to breed humans, it gives us less diversity to defend ourselves against disease and other assailants.

Racism

There is negative and positive racism, so it isn't negative in itself, though it's preferable to not have it, it's volatile since it's a potential source of conflict, I wonder if it can be reduced/eliminated.

Wealth

Doesn't really mean lot's of money, happiness and security are worth more. Having enough money is nice though, a tip is nice too.